Starting Point

Here I begin my path to wholeness.
Writing helps me express myself and find myself. Here I plan on using writing as my tool to do just that and on the way return to myself and return to joy.
After a long and hard two plus years, it is time to return to me.

Who am I?
I am a mother, wife, student, daughter, sister.
I am full of drive and self doubt.
I know the path but get scared to jump on what feels like a moving train.
I view myself as a failure where others would not.
I am smart.
I am in love. In love with the people in my life. With people who bring joy and happiness to me in so many ways. I am surrounded by love and support.
I am lucky. Lucky that I can be where I am, with who I am, and without having to worry about my finances.
I am lucky to be building a beautiful home in a beautiful and holy land.

Where I want to go:
My path is not to find where I want to go. My path is not to get somewhere specific. My path is to find my wholeness. To find what I need to do to be content with myself. To not put myself down, to not feel bad about who I am, to not have self doubt. My path right now is to me. To who I am, not who I want to be, or to who I used to be.

How?
I need to define the how. The first step is to write.
The second step for now will be a wonderful idea I heard on a podcast I listen to.
I need to sit and write 10-15 minutes a day about why I am good enough. "I am good enough because..." - this is a hard task, but I am excited about it.
My third step will have to require incorporating more movement into my day.
Number four will be healthier eating.
For today I will start with the first two and take it from there.

Wish me luck! :)